Most people jump to the conclusion I had/have PTSD. In fact, I have cPTSD. For reference, all but seven years of my life are trauma, and I’m pretty sure the professionals would say I’m wrong about those seven years, too. This is what ‘toxic stress’ and ‘chronic pain’ and ‘persistent anxiety’ and ‘severe depression’ means… that’s what it IS. That’s also before you add on the every […]
I am in pain every day, all day long. On a scale begininng at one (1) and continuing to ten (10), and inclusive of all current treatments, prescriptions, and future treatment plans as currently scheduled, my pain, every day is: never lower than a three (3) usually between four (4) and seven (7) depending on […]
Just to be clear – neither am I. I’m a messy human, just like you. All of you. I share in your generalities, but am unique in my experiences and my expression thereof. Just like you. All of you. My unique experiences are neither inferior nor superior to yours. In that we are humans, they […]
The thing about objectivity is the definition asserts a view that no human alive has ever validated a view that exists ‘outside’ our experience a view that occurs ‘without’ our knowing a view that belongs to some imponderable being that cannot be known to have lived I have lived my entire life under the burden […]
Today, my last fuck was given. I gave two hours of my life, all of my trust, and (almost) none of my masks to a neuropsychologist in hopes of finally getting a bias-free, judgment-free assessment and diagnosis. The result? Quoth the doctor: “The overall validity of her answers and responses are questionable. For example, she […]
So it is that we, hereinafter referred to as “The Terran Collective” or “TTC”, set forth our common goal as emergent expressions of imponderable life within a similarly emergent and ever-changing experience; the purpose of which is to serve at once as law and as aspiration – one planet, one future, one now – and […]
An attempt to lessen the impact of humanity upon the planet initiated and triggered by our incessant predation without informed restoration. An evolutionary offshoot that trades our predatory behaviors out and replaces relatedness with alienation. An behavioral change in which tribal, cultural, and social behaviors are inhibited or cause literal dysfunction and pain in the […]
Analysis & Design 101: The Only Guideline You Will Ever Need Question #1: What problem are you attempting to solve? Question #2: Why is it a problem, and what data supports? Question #3: Which (of a continnuum of solutions) mitigates or solves the problem and how? Question #4: How will we prove the problem is […]
// haiku break – American – 5/7/5 // With every yearPalimpsest realityWinter white the page // prose break – Buddhist (finger… moon) // The spring of youthful sprigsripening into summer’s fruitionnestling into autumn’s nostalgiadrifting into winter’s restThe cycle, infinite and fractala dropless ocean, pure emptinesswe emerge rich with probabilityencounter, experience, encoding usThe place we lived […]
EPR (popularly known as ‘quantum entanglement’) proves not only that everything is connected, but that everything is interdependent. And by everything, I mean both that which we can observe and that which we never will but can deduce from the negative space containing that scattered information… known ever after to us only as ‘the imponderable’. […]